It's my first "official" day of being a professional mom!
I'm hoping to get the boys into some sort of a real routine VERY soon. For my sanity, and theirs. I got up this morning with all of these plans for the day.. you know something creative, something educational, a nutritous lunch, a nap, and we sing Kum-By-Ya by the fireplace. lol
What I did not plan for was when I went to change Ayden I discovered an orangeish brown streak on the carpet that was about a foot & a half long. Yep. Its what you think it was. It was all over the carpet, all over Ayden, and all over me! Luckily, J got up pretty easily and we tag teamed the cleanup. But ew! That just kind of threw off my WHOLE day, I'm not going to lie.
I did get a lot done despite the poo disaster that ruled our morning. Hopefully tomorrow will be a little cleaner & smell a little better!
So far: I'm loving the professional mom thing!
Monday, August 9, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
New Directions
Well, I made a HUGE annoucement today! NO no no no, I am not pregnant again... two is plenty for now!
I am resigning my position at the center in order to stay at home with my boys full time. Yep. Me the Domestic Diva! lol I have all these plans, dreams, and ambitions for this time and I'm sure that None of it will pan out like I had hoped but I'm jumping in with both feet.
The thing I didn't expect is everyone's reaction to my decision. Most of the time when I say "I'm going to stay at home with the boys for awhile" people get this puzzled look on their face and say something like "well, IF you can do it more power to you" or "WE would NEVER be able to do that!!" Thanks for being Ernie encouragement guys.
I am going to miss the center kids like crazy. I have laughed with them, cried with them, gotten onto them (many times!) and hopefully shown them Gods love. We were there when the flood took everything from them and when they brought home straight A's on their report cards. I pray for them daily, and will continue this!
This isn't a decision that we have taken lightly. I worked hard for my degree (20 hours in one semester while working, taking care of my 2 year old & planning a wedding kind of hard!) and was happy with my career path. But God has given us these two boys to grow into Godly men... and it is not a task I'm willing to put on the back burner right now. They need me.
IF. pbbbbbt.
I am resigning my position at the center in order to stay at home with my boys full time. Yep. Me the Domestic Diva! lol I have all these plans, dreams, and ambitions for this time and I'm sure that None of it will pan out like I had hoped but I'm jumping in with both feet.
The thing I didn't expect is everyone's reaction to my decision. Most of the time when I say "I'm going to stay at home with the boys for awhile" people get this puzzled look on their face and say something like "well, IF you can do it more power to you" or "WE would NEVER be able to do that!!" Thanks for being Ernie encouragement guys.
I am going to miss the center kids like crazy. I have laughed with them, cried with them, gotten onto them (many times!) and hopefully shown them Gods love. We were there when the flood took everything from them and when they brought home straight A's on their report cards. I pray for them daily, and will continue this!
This isn't a decision that we have taken lightly. I worked hard for my degree (20 hours in one semester while working, taking care of my 2 year old & planning a wedding kind of hard!) and was happy with my career path. But God has given us these two boys to grow into Godly men... and it is not a task I'm willing to put on the back burner right now. They need me.
IF. pbbbbbt.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Just when we get back on our feet...
"God will never give you anything you can't handle... I just wish he didn't trust me so much"
sooooo I used to think that was a really witty little quote. And then we got married. But let me back up because it's not the marriage that's the problem. In fact more than once during the last (almost) 2 years someone has come up to me and said "you guys must really be right for each other to be so strong together during this" or "my marriage would have never survived this!".
No, it's not my marriage. It's L.I.F.E. Let's do a brief run-down shall we?
May '08- we got married : )
Sept '08- I fell down the stairs & spent the morning in the ER, we went to the drug store to get the scripts filled after we left the ER and mom called to say my grandmother had died. The day of her funeral J's union went on strike... and we lost more than 50% of our weekly income
Dec '08- Christmas, strike style.... we also found out we were pregnant
Jan '09- J FINALLY went back to work from the strike & things settled down (some)
Mar '09- we started the adoption process for my hubz to adopt my older son
Summer '09- VERY pregnant= miserable
Aug '09- after a particularly rough labor... the baby is born! He's big, but healthy.
Sept '09- We found the hydrocephalus... MRI, X-rays, etc. we also find out the baby has no insurance... and we are facing brain surgery
Oct '09- Still no insurance, and they want $30,000 up front before the surgery.. in 7 days
Nov. '09- We got approved for the insurance just in time for brain surgery #1. J's great-grandmother died the same day. Ten days later he started showing signs of infection and after being rushed to the ER he had surgery #2. We spent a week in the hospital trying to clear up the infection. We were only allowed to hold him for about 30 minutes a day. At the end of that week, he had brain surgery #3.
Dec. '09- The adoption was finalized (!) and they send us home with the baby... and an IV for two weeks I get to play nurse 'round the clock. our savings have been depleted by medical bills and time off work, etc. we are having a really hard time staying afloat (oh, and Christmas is coming!)
Jan. '10- My 4 year old has his adenoids taken out and tubes put in his ears
Feb. '10- on my car's 1 year birthday J wrecked it into a wall... thankfully he and the kids are just fine
This brings us to today. Dad had a colonoscopy and found what they are 99% sure is cancer. We are waiting on the labs to confirm....
I'm ready to throw in the towel. I just want to tell God "OK! It's time to pick on someone else!!" It just seems like everytime we can breathe again from having the wind knocked out of us, they throw another punch. I don't want to spend my life wondering when the next crisis is going to happen... but it just seems like we can't let our gaurd down. I just don't know anymore.
sooooo I used to think that was a really witty little quote. And then we got married. But let me back up because it's not the marriage that's the problem. In fact more than once during the last (almost) 2 years someone has come up to me and said "you guys must really be right for each other to be so strong together during this" or "my marriage would have never survived this!".
No, it's not my marriage. It's L.I.F.E. Let's do a brief run-down shall we?
May '08- we got married : )
Sept '08- I fell down the stairs & spent the morning in the ER, we went to the drug store to get the scripts filled after we left the ER and mom called to say my grandmother had died. The day of her funeral J's union went on strike... and we lost more than 50% of our weekly income
Dec '08- Christmas, strike style.... we also found out we were pregnant
Jan '09- J FINALLY went back to work from the strike & things settled down (some)
Mar '09- we started the adoption process for my hubz to adopt my older son
Summer '09- VERY pregnant= miserable
Aug '09- after a particularly rough labor... the baby is born! He's big, but healthy.
Sept '09- We found the hydrocephalus... MRI, X-rays, etc. we also find out the baby has no insurance... and we are facing brain surgery
Oct '09- Still no insurance, and they want $30,000 up front before the surgery.. in 7 days
Nov. '09- We got approved for the insurance just in time for brain surgery #1. J's great-grandmother died the same day. Ten days later he started showing signs of infection and after being rushed to the ER he had surgery #2. We spent a week in the hospital trying to clear up the infection. We were only allowed to hold him for about 30 minutes a day. At the end of that week, he had brain surgery #3.
Dec. '09- The adoption was finalized (!) and they send us home with the baby... and an IV for two weeks I get to play nurse 'round the clock. our savings have been depleted by medical bills and time off work, etc. we are having a really hard time staying afloat (oh, and Christmas is coming!)
Jan. '10- My 4 year old has his adenoids taken out and tubes put in his ears
Feb. '10- on my car's 1 year birthday J wrecked it into a wall... thankfully he and the kids are just fine
This brings us to today. Dad had a colonoscopy and found what they are 99% sure is cancer. We are waiting on the labs to confirm....
I'm ready to throw in the towel. I just want to tell God "OK! It's time to pick on someone else!!" It just seems like everytime we can breathe again from having the wind knocked out of us, they throw another punch. I don't want to spend my life wondering when the next crisis is going to happen... but it just seems like we can't let our gaurd down. I just don't know anymore.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
what I've learned in 2009
2009 was the first year since I was 4 that I wasn't in school.... and yet God & life chose to teach me more lessons than I could ever imagine.
In 2009 I learned: (somewhat in order)
~ Not to take our jobs for granted, one strike vote and we could be in trouble.
~ car salesmen are pushy... but the feeling of owning a brand new car is pretty sweet... until your preschooler gets ahold of the backseat : )
~ planning a summer program takes time and patience
~ a weekend away with the hubz is precious, and gives us the boost of energy we need to make it through a few more months
~ we celebrated our first anniversary- they say the first year is the hardest.. we didn't think it was too tough (year 2 on the other hand? wow)
~ Being pregnant during the summer is MISERABLE (you would have thought I'd learn my lesson with the oldest)
~ falling down the stairs while pregnant & at the beach is even more miserable
~ Drama will follow you for the rest of your life whether you want it to or not
~ whoever said Labor with the second baby was much easier than # 1 was LYING!!
~ asking for help when you can't do it anymore does not show weakness
~ Sometimes, doing stupid things (like dropping the baby on his head) will sometimes lead to great things (like discovering a life threatening medical condition)
~ there is a condition called Hydrocephalus, that will haunt us for the rest of our lives
~ There are people in this world who just don't care, even if your baby is sick
~ When God closed a door... it's because he knew the window route would be cheaper
~ If we can survive one brain surgery.... 3 should be no problem right?
~ When your life is falling apart, your REAL friends will stand with you
~ Prayer is a powerful weapon most of us don't use very often
~ Just when I didn't think I had anymore fight in me, God decided to show me I was wrong
~ A strong marriage can see you through just about anything
Happy New Year to each & every one of you! I hope 2010 is a lot less dramatic than 09 was.
In 2009 I learned: (somewhat in order)
~ Not to take our jobs for granted, one strike vote and we could be in trouble.
~ car salesmen are pushy... but the feeling of owning a brand new car is pretty sweet... until your preschooler gets ahold of the backseat : )
~ planning a summer program takes time and patience
~ a weekend away with the hubz is precious, and gives us the boost of energy we need to make it through a few more months
~ we celebrated our first anniversary- they say the first year is the hardest.. we didn't think it was too tough (year 2 on the other hand? wow)
~ Being pregnant during the summer is MISERABLE (you would have thought I'd learn my lesson with the oldest)
~ falling down the stairs while pregnant & at the beach is even more miserable
~ Drama will follow you for the rest of your life whether you want it to or not
~ whoever said Labor with the second baby was much easier than # 1 was LYING!!
~ asking for help when you can't do it anymore does not show weakness
~ Sometimes, doing stupid things (like dropping the baby on his head) will sometimes lead to great things (like discovering a life threatening medical condition)
~ there is a condition called Hydrocephalus, that will haunt us for the rest of our lives
~ There are people in this world who just don't care, even if your baby is sick
~ When God closed a door... it's because he knew the window route would be cheaper
~ If we can survive one brain surgery.... 3 should be no problem right?
~ When your life is falling apart, your REAL friends will stand with you
~ Prayer is a powerful weapon most of us don't use very often
~ Just when I didn't think I had anymore fight in me, God decided to show me I was wrong
~ A strong marriage can see you through just about anything
Happy New Year to each & every one of you! I hope 2010 is a lot less dramatic than 09 was.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Giving Thanks
Thanksgiving is coming up... until this year I was thankful for your normal things. You know: family, the food on the table, health, etc. Now it almost seems like a habit more than anything.
But this year... it's different. This year I am thankful for so much more. I'm thankful for my infant son, that though he was not exactly born healthy they caught the problem early and have worked to correct it.
I am thankful for all of the people who fought for us in getting his surgery done. Only God knows what kind of damage could have been done to his little brain in the two weeks they wanted us to wait.
I am thankful for all of the people who have been so kind to us over the last few weeks. Those people go from the lady at church who sent us a check out of nowhere, to J's co-workers who have been so understanding when he doesn't meet his quota, to the hundreds of people who have said prayers for us, to our good friends who just listen when thats what we need the most.
I am thankful for my oldest son. He never fails to make us laugh. He loves us even when we can't be 100% for him because our energies have to be elsewhere.
I am thankful for my husband. He is the only one who knows exactly where I'm walking right now, and has never left my side. I am thankful that I have his hand to hold when I am mad, when I am scared, when I am happy, and when I am drained. That when I just don't have anymore to give, he steps in and takes over.
But most of all, I am thankful for answered prayers. There have been hundreds if not thousands of prayers said by us, and for us over the last few months. We feel the power of those prayers and have seen firsthand what can happen when you pray freverently.
If I didn't believe in HIM before this, I certainly believe in HIM now.. and my boys are in HIS arms.
But this year... it's different. This year I am thankful for so much more. I'm thankful for my infant son, that though he was not exactly born healthy they caught the problem early and have worked to correct it.
I am thankful for all of the people who fought for us in getting his surgery done. Only God knows what kind of damage could have been done to his little brain in the two weeks they wanted us to wait.
I am thankful for all of the people who have been so kind to us over the last few weeks. Those people go from the lady at church who sent us a check out of nowhere, to J's co-workers who have been so understanding when he doesn't meet his quota, to the hundreds of people who have said prayers for us, to our good friends who just listen when thats what we need the most.
I am thankful for my oldest son. He never fails to make us laugh. He loves us even when we can't be 100% for him because our energies have to be elsewhere.
I am thankful for my husband. He is the only one who knows exactly where I'm walking right now, and has never left my side. I am thankful that I have his hand to hold when I am mad, when I am scared, when I am happy, and when I am drained. That when I just don't have anymore to give, he steps in and takes over.
But most of all, I am thankful for answered prayers. There have been hundreds if not thousands of prayers said by us, and for us over the last few months. We feel the power of those prayers and have seen firsthand what can happen when you pray freverently.
If I didn't believe in HIM before this, I certainly believe in HIM now.. and my boys are in HIS arms.
Monday, November 9, 2009
This Morning
I am sitting here watching Sesame Street with my 4 year old son while my infant son & husband sleep in our oversized chair.... this seems mundane, I know. But lately our lives have been in complete chaos and this morning, we are grateful for the mundane.
THIS MORNING, we aren't worried about bills, where the food will come from, my infant's impending brain surgery, court dates, insurance (or lack thereof), jobs, allergic reactions... really I could go on.
THIS MORNING we are your typical American family watching Elmo dance & sing and dozing in a big comfy chair. This morning our lives are normal.
I wish it would stay that way.
But THIS AFTERNOON I have to call two different Dr's and the hospital and talk to them about the money we owe them. TOMORROW I have to go to DHS to try and get my infant insured before his surgery. NEXT WEEK I will hand my sweet baby over to a surgeon so that he can have a shunt put in his head to drain the fluid off of his brain. NEXT MONTH we will go to court for what I hope is the last time.
But none of that matters THIS MORNING. Because, THIS MORNING we are counting and singing and doing laundry & making lunch plans. THIS MORNING we are thanking God for the peace & quiet, and that things seem to be in control. At least for THIS MORNING.
THIS MORNING, we aren't worried about bills, where the food will come from, my infant's impending brain surgery, court dates, insurance (or lack thereof), jobs, allergic reactions... really I could go on.
THIS MORNING we are your typical American family watching Elmo dance & sing and dozing in a big comfy chair. This morning our lives are normal.
I wish it would stay that way.
But THIS AFTERNOON I have to call two different Dr's and the hospital and talk to them about the money we owe them. TOMORROW I have to go to DHS to try and get my infant insured before his surgery. NEXT WEEK I will hand my sweet baby over to a surgeon so that he can have a shunt put in his head to drain the fluid off of his brain. NEXT MONTH we will go to court for what I hope is the last time.
But none of that matters THIS MORNING. Because, THIS MORNING we are counting and singing and doing laundry & making lunch plans. THIS MORNING we are thanking God for the peace & quiet, and that things seem to be in control. At least for THIS MORNING.
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